Ok, this is depressing. If you’re already in a good mood, turn away! Quickly!

I knew things were feeling a little uncomfortable and a lot tighter the last week. So in the interest of complete disclosure and being totally honest with myself — something I’ve been forcing me to do thoughout this journey even when it’s not something I’m proud of — I took measurements this morning and sure enough, they’re up.

I knew it. I could feel it.

The last time I measured was November 11th. Why? Because I thought I’d never have to deal with gaining/losing again! Did I really believe that? I think I did. I thought this has taken me so so long I will never lose control again. But wow. What a boomerang! It came back and hit me right in the head!

So —  just trying for straight-forward openness. These were the numbers [the last in each row] on November 11th.

Bust was 40, then 38, then 37.5, then 37.5, then 37
Waist was 34, then 31, then 31, then 30.5, still 30.5
Abdomen was 40.5, then 36.5 then 35.5, then 34.5, still 34.5
Hips were 41, then 38.5, then, 38, then 37.5, still 37.5
Thigh was 24.75, then 22.75, then 22.25, then 22, then 21.5
Arm was 13.5, then 12, then 12, then 11.75, then 11.5

This morning I noticed I have gained pounds and inches.

Bust: 37 [same]
Waist: 31 [up .5]
Abdomen: 35.5 [up 1]
Hips: 37.5 [same]
Thighs: 22.5 [up 1]
Arm: 12 [up .5]

SEE how exact this science is! It’s Physics! Gain weight, gain the exact amount in inches. Lose weight lose the exact amount in inches.

Ok. This is my new starting point! I’m 142 this morning and I’m heading downward!

“Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending.”