stale chips

I’m taking all my frustrations out on myself. Tonight after working 9 hours and then scoring Freshman basketball for another three hours, I came home and found spaghetti on the stove. Of course my resistance is low because of my turmoil. I had a bowl of spaghetti and then two huge bowls of stale chips that have been on the fridge for two months. This, after exercising hard this morning and eating very healthy all day. Cooked all-grain cereal with walnuts, cinnamon and raisins, big salad for lunch, apple and orange during the games.

I don’t feel good.

I thought of Jillian Michaels’ quote that I used to say all the time when I had more control. Back in June through November when I was doing better I used this quote to get through many a temptation.

Stop and think it through, “Do I really want this? How will I feel after I eat it? Is it going to put me in a tailspin; am I going to regret my decision? Is it getting me closer to my ultimate goal?” ~Jillian Michaels
I’m feeling pretty much like a failure.

It’s amazing how fast I can go from control to no control.

See. I really can’t do more than one thing at a time. When I’m distracted, overwhelmed, frustrated, my healthy habits go in the toi-toi.

Seriously. Pathetic.

I’ve got to get a grip now.