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Apr

cruise

Just to prove I can post about things other than the continual ups and downs of my weight, I decided to put into words something that has been going around in my head for a couple of days. I’ve been thinking about how interesting and surprising life is. I was telling my friend about the fact that my boys just returned home yesterday from a cruise. She said, “Scott and Stephen.” I said, “Scott, Stephen and Cameron!” She couldn’t believe it. I can’t believe it!

You have to know the background to realize how amazing it is that these three guys — men, now — spent a week together in the Caribbean. Cam moved away after his Freshman year. His father and I divorced and Cameron needed to be with his dad. He left one day while I was away from home and never came back. I thought he was going for one year, but he had something else in mind and has stayed for — 15 years? Something like that.

He came back for a few days when Blythe and Andie were born. He came another time. It may have been three times all together. But here is the amazing part. When my mother died last year, he came for her funeral. He stayed the better part of a week. Then six months later he came back to go camping with us for a week at Green River Lakes. Several weeks ago he went to Las Vegas with Scott, and then this past week he went on a cruise with Scott and Stephen. And now the awkwardness is gone.

My stoney, frozen, damaged heart healed. In a matter of a few months. It’s all stitched up. It’s back in one piece.

I’m not sure who to thank for this miracle.

I had passed the point where I thought we would never see each other again. I had passed the point where I believed we would never heal from the hurt. I had passed the point where I hoped my heart would ever have room for this son who left me.

But now, it’s like it never happened. He’s all grown up. I had remembered him all those years as the boy he was when he left. He’s very different than I had imagined. And yet he’s exactly the same.

And I’m so thrilled, so happy, so pleased, so relieved that a small measure of peace and comfort have filled my heart and blessed my life.

I am so blessed.