I’m avoiding. I know I am.
Every day I get on the scale and everyday it says something I don’t want to post about. So I don’t. I avoid.
Every day I go to the jean pile that is a titch bigger than the pile I like.
Every day I start out strong and committed and then by evening I’m not so much. And I snack on things hubby has sitting on the cabinet. Two brownies before bed. A bowl of cereal while I’m watching taped NCIS reruns even when I’m not the tiniest bit hungry.
Or a hunk of cheese. I really hate cheese.
Every day I say I’ll exercise and I usually do on Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday. But today’s Saturday and I have no gumption. No energy. No interest.
Every day I think of my niece who has been doing good things since December and wonder if she has days and weeks like this.
And today. It’s snowing. And I think: No wonder!
Everything is messed up. The world is in chaos!
How can I possibly get my stuff together and keep it together when it is snowing on May 22?
What is the world coming to?
I was going to mow in the sunshine and fertilize the lawn. I was going to suck in the rays and absorb some vitamin D.
But instead I’m going to take a hot bath and wrap up in hubby’s wool socks and Under Armour and watch the snowflakes stack up in the yard. And eat steaming hot Bruce’s cereal. And work on my lesson for tomorrow. And feel thankful my friend Becky insisted on working the football game today [in the snow.]
And enjoy life as I know it.