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May

this or this?

Hey. Yay. 145.5!

I had a difficult time yesterday. I tried to be conscious of what I was thinking and what I was wanting to eat. I thought about food all day long. And I did eat cheese pizza sticks and two sugar cookies at the lunchroom yesterday, but the rest of the day I did great — veggies, Kashi, yogurt and strawberries.

But, I’m starting to crave things. I must have gone to the fridge a hundred times yesterday and last evening.

I keep talking to myself — right out loud. “Do you want this, or do you want to feel good about yourself? Do you want to gorge or do you want your clothes to fit? Do you want to give into this moment or do you want to be healthy? Do you want to cave or do you want to weigh 142?”

The last two weeks of school are so stressful with assemblies, setting up for graduation, driving the bus every single day, meetings for finance, sick bank, calendar, and insurance. Decisions to make. But I’m trying to hang on and hold tight.

My lesson this week has given me perspective and grounded me just enough to keep me feeling pretty centered. And Im grateful for that.

And, I’m grateful for YOU!