30 things

I just tried to log-in to post something. Guess it’s been so long that Word Press forgot who I am. I actually had to prove myself to WordPress!

Anyway . . . .

I have no excuses. I’m just tired, lazy, embarrassed and frustrated. Oh, wait. Those might actually resemble excuses. Oh, and busy!


Um. I read something that basically stopped my heart. It was so painful. I keep thinking I’d like to process it for a while, but this is way too vulnerable a place for me. Sometimes a person walks up to me and says, “Why aren’t you writing anymore? Why aren’t you blogging?” And, I say, “What? You read that?” They say, “Well, only when you write something new. Which you haven’t for a long time.” Me: “I didn’t know you read it, you’ve never left a comment or anything or said anything about it to me before.” Shrug.

So, see, I can’t really put things on here because they are too personal.

Mikelle told me a couple people in her family [in-laws] read so that makes it pretty scary, too. I don’t want people to know me. I don’t want them to know this me. The other me — the fun and happy and bubbly me, is fine. This me drives me nuts.

Aww, but I need to process. I’ve been needing to get thoughts out of my head. They are taking up too much space!

30 Things to Stop Doing to Yourself Myself

1. Stop spending time with the wrong people. — Life is too short to spend time with people who suck the happiness out of you. If someone wants you in their life, they’ll make room for you. You shouldn’t have to fight for a spot. Never-ever insist yourself to someone who continuously overlooks your worth. And, remember, it’s not the people that stand by your side when you’re at your best, but the ones who stand beside you when you’re at your worst that are your true friends.

Geez. I really can’t change all of that now. I’m too far into this. Holy cow. I’m 61 and I really can’t make that kind of change. I wouldn’t even know how to make that change. But, I do think about it. A lot.

2. Stop running from your problems. — Face them head on. No, it won’t be easy. There is no person in the world capable of flawlessly handling every punch thrown at them. We aren’t supposed to be able to instantly solve problems. That’s not how we’re made. In fact, we’re made to get upset, sad, hurt, stumble and fall. Because, that’s the whole purpose of living – to face problems, learn, adapt, and solve them over the course of time. This is what ultimately molds us into the person we become.

Sheesh! That’s basically what I do . . . run.

And, third:

3. Stop lying to yourself. — You can lie to anyone else in the world, but you can’t lie to yourself. Our lives improve only when we take chances, and the first and most difficult chance we can take is to be honest with ourselves.

The first three things to stop doing to yourself myself! And, I’m already a little stumped.

There’s more! There’s 30 of the little darlings! Thirty things to stop doing, all of which I do! Really well.

2 thoughts on “30 things

  1. Tracy

    Yes…good things to stop, but it doesn’t mean beat yourself up and think of all the ways you are doing those things.

    Love you…all of you…even the parts you don’t like.

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