25
May

to listen and to pray

Wow. Two awesome sessions at the Idaho Falls temple today. I think I’m finally getting it. I feel like I’m finally getting why my mother loved temple work. I’m finally getting a taste of what it feels like to listen to the Spirit and feel His influence. I’m feeling/receiving answers to my most pressing prayers. I’m recognizing blessings as they come more abundantly. And I’m feeling a connection to the persons I’m doing temple work for.

And it feels so dang good!

I used to go to the temple twice a year. I used to think that was enough and now I know better. And as Maya Angelo says, “when you know better, you do better.”

My prayers have changed. My attitude has changed. My thirst for knowledge has changed. My interests and plans have changed. I actually think my love has changed.

Looking backwards is such a vision. I remember so clearly thinking that my own mother knew me better than I do. She used to have hope for me when I didn’t. She saw potential when I didn’t. And now, I seriously know exactly what she saw in me because I can feel myself being more of what she would have wanted me to be.

Yesterday when I walked out of the temple I started crying because of all the pure joy in my heart!! I cried out to God as I walked toward my car, “Thank you, thank you for life and for joy and for peace.” Seriously! I would have never done that ten years ago. Five years ago. I would have never felt that even two years ago.

Some people cannot see a good thing when it is right here, right now. Others can sense a good thing coming when it is days, months, or miles away.

My mother sensed it miles away!

And today I get to do it all over again. With Chris.

I used to say I would never miss going to the Quilted Bear if I were in Ogden. But I had never thought of the temple the same way. I never thought gee, here I am in Ogden, I ought to go to the temple. Now I think of going to the temple several weekends a month and can hardly wait for the Ogden Temple to open again after this massive re-construction. I actually miss the Ogden Temple!!! Oh, Wait. And for the record. I haven’t been in the Quilted Bear for several months!

This change is good. Feels good. Feels warm. Feels whole. Feels right.