the good, bad and really really ugh-ly

Did I mention how much I love my kiddos? They are so good to me. I’ve been having a bit of a rough go the last week and Mikelle and Tracy are totally listening and suporting and helping me. They’ve taken my calls and texts at very late and very early hours of the day and night. They’ve said all the right things. They’ve been right in the trenches with me.

I had one of the best Januarys ever! I set a goal of moving more and eating more mindfully. After my little health scare of chest pains last November I was determined and committed to treat myself, my body, better and to take better care of myself. I went to the gym at least 4-5 times a week. I seriously ate so well. And after five weeks, I’m down 12 pounds!!! That’s huge! I feel so good and so motivated. I’m about halfway done. I’ll keep going and improving. My cravings are all but gone, and I’m feeling like I almost have a grasp on self-control. You, know, for the moment! [I totally know myself and all my patterns and roller-coaster existence!]

Along with all that physical goodness, I’ve filled up my mind and spirit with scriptures, good commentaries, uplifting talks and discussions. One of my favorite has been Sisters in the Scriptures and Faithful, Fit and Fabulous by Connie Sokol. She also has Back to Basics. I feel so ‘full!’ I love feeling this way!

Good thing I spent so much time getting back to a reasonably balanced life, because boy-howdy did things go south the last day of January and this first week of February. Really odd behavior, really odd texts showing up on my phone, really odd physical manifestations of too much going on. That may sound cryptic, and it is for good reason, but it may or may not develop into something else that I would continue to write about. We’ll see.

In the meantime I’m holding tight, praying, pleading actually, for answers, understanding, direction and hope.

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