A huge weight has been lifted. I’ve been physically sick about money, taxes, bills, etc., and this morning I woke up feeling, finally, not as overwhelmed. We met with Angie last night and I was able to articulate how I feel about the unbalanced financial load of income tax this year. I know it’s been tough, [but, it’s tough for everyone] and I didn’t feel like I could/should take on that added responsibility.
I haven’t been able to bring myself to do this . . .
. . . even though I’ve received many encouraging and loving texts and emails from family and friends the last 3-4 weeks . . . but, boy howdy, how I long to just let go and fall into the loving arms of Someone Much Wiser than me!!
Hoping life will get better and more peaceful now, but I’m not holding my breath. Is it too much to ask to be able to just go to work, to go to the temple on weekends, to enjoy my children and grands, and to go to the gym? Is it too much to ask to have health, strength and peace? And joy! Is it too much to ask that the people around me take care of themselves and I will take care of me?
I’m such a fan of self-responsibility.