30
Dec

trust & faith

I barely remember how to do this. It’s been so long. Everyday when I sit at my computer I remember Andie’s words, “Grammar, you don’t have to just write about your health and weight.” And now I’m worried people will say, “Dorothy, you don’t have to just write about your totally craptastic marriage to a lying cheating moronic man.” [edited . . believe me, I took a lot out of that last sentence!]

But to put it bluntly, life has been hell for over three years.

I put this in my ward bulletin for tomorrow.

I have learned that Faith means trusting in advance what will only make sense in reverse.

I am hanging on to my faith with all I’ve got. And then a tsunami of doubt comes and I wonder if I have any faith at all. I’m so totally filled with hate and anger and resentment and ill will and doubt. I pendulum back to this quote:


DOUBT YOUR DOUBT BEFORE YOU DOUBT YOUR FAITH!

There’s one more temple day in 2017 and that’s today. So I’m trusting my trust, having faith in my faith and heading there this morning.